tears flowing
Heart Pounding, excruciatingly slow
Uncertain, unsure of what the future holds
Thoughts... images
Running.. flowing.... colliding
To where..... I do not know
Where they originated
How they move
I have no answers
Only questions
Only anger
Only hurt
Porcelain mask to hide the pain
Cracks starting to shatter the veneer
Weighing me down
Blinding me
Feeling, but not feeling
Numbness... denial
tears... sobs... whimpers
All alone lost in my fragmented dreams
Just here in the darkness
without you
-CMA January 1996