My friend, my heart, my special someone

I know I shouldn't feel this way

I try not to think about it

But I can't forget these feelings I have

Bittersweet memories recalled and replayed

I try to let go

.... but you're never far away

You don't realize that I still feel for you

You don't realize that you still hurt me.

This masquerade is known only to me

It hurts... only me

I want to tell you everything ... openly ... freely

But I fear pain and embarassment

I love the time we spend together...

... yet my mind drifts to wishful thoughts

A secret place in my heart ...

... I know will never be complete

For I know you will always be...

... only be ...

My Friend

- Cyndi Abundabar - To my close friend - If wishes came true =(

April 1995